Summer’s First Ramble
August 25th, 2010
You’ve now had the first rant and some character profiles to “set the scene” so I will now proceed to post all the summer’s drunken/tired lamentations and anecdotes of my sad life:
This beast was written on Saturday 3rd July, nearly two weeks into the Summer holiday. It was when all was new, and I had just started hanging out with Lobb and her Merry Men on a regular basis. I had first met them a week before at the White Lion (location profiles coming soon), the night before Hannah’s 18th when I ended up with all my clothes off (though not alone, and not in a seedy way). Anyway, here it is (it takes me back…):
My main aim for the evening was to get with Jack, but then Jack vommed in the car park of the Blackmore Vale. I think that pretty much sums it up.
Now is the summer of freedom. Previously, before I was an alcoholic, I had planned to spend this summer teaching myself philosophy and generally becoming a more rounded person. Nearly two weeks in, this is very far from happening. CURRENTLY I am drinking copious amounts daily, not eating, not sleeping, “drinking through it” and spending my days either with my friends I am soon to leave forever, or a bunch of acquaintances who I don’t really like but who are all in love with one of my best friends…
Do not really know what I am doing.
I swear, you know, it fucking sucks. Do not get WHY they are all in love with Lobb. It’s like at least four of them now. Hannah’s brother was the first to go, then Denzel, then Darren, and the forth one isn’t actually part of that gang but it is he who she actually likes: Dan Mogridge. She keeps complaining about it. There is nothing to complain about. FOUR GUYS. I do not even have one guy. I am left in the lurch perpetually as my more attractive friends have guys hurl themselves at them, and I just sit there drinking it away. I feel sick all the time and now have a dull pain where I suppose my liver is. Oh, well.
All my friends have men in love with them at the moment, it’s rather irritating. I comment on this on a regular basis and Lobb and Holly are like “Well, there’s Jack.” But the fact of the matter is there really isn’t Jack. I mean, I think I like him. When I’m bored I do tend to go in for the odd facebook stalk, but I think that might be only because I keep being told he likes me. I was so tired today after a fortnight of binge but went out because Lobb said “Oh, Jack and Darren are coming” and, you know, I realise that that is so very sad but frankly I’m beyond caring. Nearly three months sexually sober and I am fucking BORED. The issue is that I don’t actually think he likes me. Every time I try to talk to him he just gives me distant one word answers and avoids eye contact. Lobb says it’s because he finds it difficult to talk to girls (/boys) he actually likes, but I ain’t so convinced. I don’t know. Maybe it’s not really a good idea to have a naked frolic with someone the first time you meet them… I’m thinking it might make future encounters that little bit more awkward… Sigh.
Right. I’m drunk, as I normally am when I write these self indulgent rambles… and I just checked facebook. Previously this evening I had messaged Emily asking for a Clockhouse sesh with her and Trim tomorrow, tempting her with gossip of my antics last night at Jenou’s party. Here be her reply:
*hahahahahahaha “concerning myself, and penis” and yeah ok, not too late as i dont want to be too tired for that nice long drive 
and WOOO im glad you worked up some gossip for the new place!! seeing as prom gossip couldnt wait (i still lolled at that when i remembered today) 
was it jack? (i think he’s jack?) glasses? REALLY good at improvising? to be honest i dont want you to tell me..!! omg that reminds me lets bite the bullet and join the bum fingering group!!!!
Xxxxxxxx*
Oh, bum fingering. That’s a whole other story*. BASICALLY – If only it was Jack. Then I wouldn’t feel like such a skank right now…. because the sad fact of the matter is that it was (hangs head in shame) Mongini. Yeah…. that…. again… oh fucking hell. It wasn’t as bad as it could have been, though. I didn’t actually bang him. I had simply gone for a pee in the field (party took place in a barn) and was returning to the fire, when who do I meet but HIM. And we stand there and we end up hugging and I’m really drunk and his kisses me. I can’t say I enjoyed it. I was drunk enough to do it but not drunk enough not to think “Christ, this is Mongini… again”. It got pretty heavy though. Got handsy downstairs like “the good old days” and then he asked me if I was still on the pill and asked me if I wanted to do it and I thought about it and I said no. Due to my sexually soberness, I really did want to. Just not with him. I knew I’d feel shit about it and I sort of do anyway. In the end it was the image of Emily’s disappointment that prevented me from allowing myself to be penetrated. She’s going to be angry at the handsyness anyway, but at least we didn’t actually do it. In some ways, I feel like that showed me to be a good person. Maybe that actually was the proof I’ve finally come of age: I didn’t bang Mongini.
Sigh, if only it was Jack…
After the antics in the grass with Mongini I did remark how I would now embark on a naked frolic with Jack… that riled him somewhat, lolz. “What some random bisexual guy, you’re not, surely…?” As it happens, we didn’t. Was a very disappointing evening in that sense. I think I do like him – Jack, not Mongini. Out of all of that gang he’s the funniest and cleverest and basically the most cool. He’s a bit short for me but I really don’t care anymore. I really wanted to get with him tonight because, due to lobb and her merry band of admirers, things might be a tinsy bit awkward now. When she was with Darren, for that few days, it was all “Oh, me Jack and Darren are gonna come to your house, ooh, come out with me and Jack and Darren tonight” but now, because Darren “really, really” likes Lobb and she ain’t that bothered, things aren’t exactly going to be the same. And I’m going to Wales next week. When I get back it’ll all have gone completely to shit. SIGH.
I am so fucking fed up with people and their unrequited love. GET OVER IT.
There are many things that irritate me in life but one of the main issues is WHY do less attractive guys always go for more attractive girls- who they aren’t going to get. Us averagely attractive girls just sit there (drinking) while they flirt and laugh and buy drinks for “the pretty one”. It means that we get left with the proper scrapings of the barrel (Mongini). This is all very soul destroying. ALSO, I still don’t get why people go for, specifically, Hannah. She’s one of best friends and all but she does stomp around like a man, complaining about everything – is that really what guys go for? Being, as I was, on my lowest ever battery levels this evening, when Jack said in regards to Jay’s impotence “Who wouldn’t get an erection when Hannah’s around?” I nearly killed someone. What does she have that I haven’t? I seriously think I just HATE all of my female friends sometimes/all the time. I know it sounds crappy and evolutionary, but you literally are just in competition with them all the time. It can be rather exhausting.
“Darren Carpenter is in a complicated relationship.” For fuck’s sake.
I think, just generally, we should have all stayed at home tonight. Plan for the evening was that me and Lobb would hit Legends with Jack and Darren, but we all barely made it to the Blackmore Vale. On the last day of a fortnight long binge (alternating between weed and cheap co-op wine) maybe it is best just to have a quite night in. As it stands Jack was vomming and Darren was crying and Lobb was flirting and it was just a bit…. meh.
Oh well. I guess I can always go *on the pull* in Wales….
*Lewis bum fingered Hannah back in February, which we all found the most hilarious thing ever. Of course, reading this rant back a few weeks later that reference becomes even funnier…
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August 24th, 2010
Mute. In the world of politics, the use of violence indicates, yet covers over an elementary impotence.
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August 23rd, 2010
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An Overview of Prostate Cancer Gleason Scores
August 22nd, 2010
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August 22nd, 2010
Are we really no further ahead with prostate cancer testing?
August 22nd, 2010
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August 22nd, 2010
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August 21st, 2010
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